I MUST CONFESS 

The guilt. It will consume you, if you’re not careful. I shunned away the idea of mom guilt because I couldn’t understand how someone could feel bad about providing for their kids, or taking care of themselves, or focusing on their marriage. After all, those are the cornerstones of a healthy family. Until of course……

I AM

There is a conversation I had with a woman a few years ago that I’ll never forget. She is a friend of my friend, and we were all together having wine and chatting one evening. “It’s hard being a single mom,” she said. She went on to complain about how her husband travels for work…

Mama

As mothers, we go by many names. For whatever reason, instead of referring to myself as “Mom,” or “Mommy” when I’m with Lily, I’ve always called myself, “Mama.” I call myself that name, my mom (now known as “DiDi,”) calls me that, and several people at my place of employment affectionately refer to me as “Mama”….

Me, Me, Me.

I have Fridays off. It’s a rare blessing to have the opportunity to spend time with my girl instead of scraping together more money for another day of day care. Our time is filled with food and play and *THE ROUTINE.* We live and die by this routine, and usually, we both appreciate it. Today, Lily was…

Break on Down

As the days and months go by and my daughter grows before my eyes, time seems both like an endless cycle of tasks and a blurry daydream. I can’t believe it was an entire year ago that I was hugely pregnant and anxiously awaiting the biggest life change of them all. The beginning was difficult, and…

EMBRACING THE CLICHÉ

Happy New Year! Most people were eager to say goodbye to 2016, and I was probably among them. It was a strange and often traumatic year for various reasons, but as I examined on my first-born blog, 2016 wasn’t all horrible. I became a mom. Without trying, I became what I once referred to as…

What They Won’t Tell You About Breastfeeding

Looking at the 3 total ounces of milk I had pumped while at work one day last week, I realized, it was all ending. Breastfeeding is such a hot topic in the world of pregnancy and parenthood because within the last 20 years, it has practically become a religion in itself. Everyone from pediatricians to…

THE WAITING GAME

K, guys. That last one was a little harsh, I know. I am pleased to report things are looking up. The fact that I’m even sitting here, outside on my deck writing this is proof that things can and do get better. I found out there is no set time for things to improve, and…

Postpartum and the Return to Life

Hi. I’m still here. We are all still alive, (I think.) What I did was go back to work. All my intentions of writing a few great pieces about the last days of maternity leave went out the window with my baby who used to sleep through the night. Man, I thought I had it all…

MAternity Leave vs. MEternity Leave

I have about two weeks left of maternity leave, and with it a mix of emotions. Growing up, I was lucky to have my mom at home with my brother and I full time. As an adolescent dreaming about my adulthood, I always imagined I would do the same. As an adult in the working…

Product Wars

I have about 25 minutes to myself. This has to go fast. When you are a new mom, you will hit several walls. I think my pattern is about every 3 weeks, sometimes more frequently if I’m lacking sleep. My latest wall occurred epically on Father’s Day (#wifeoftheyear). I decided I couldn’t make my daughter happy…

THE TRENCHES OF HELL

The most cliché thing about this blog so far is how I haven’t written because I’m too damn busy with my kid. Gone are the days of going out to a coffee shop to pound out a post over an iced coffee, or staying up late to get a couple written ahead of time. As…